Dear Alan,
Tonight there will be only words, words that I have been longing to get out for almost a month and tonight seems like the perfect night to pour my heart out. It seems as our lives have been a whirlwind lately and I have not been there as though I want to be, but I struggle to realize and do know that it's temporary and in a way good for you to start becoming independent, learning to play and imagine and develop into your own little being. It seems like your birthday came and went with Gibby and Gampa here visiting and then with moving it's been crazy. And you know what, you have been a trooper. I still don't think you completely understand that this is our new home, our place that we will begin making more memories, our home that your daddy and I have dreamed of having for you. And for us it seemed like it would never happen. All we kept saying was that we wanted to get into a house for you to run and run and run and play and be free. It's here!
So as the three of us lay on our couch, in our new living room, with the wind blowing through the lanai and windows and you dreaming away...I realize that this is what I have ever wanted in life.
We will get the boxes unpacked, (and my little peanut you have been such a great helper) I will pull out the scrapbook, I will get pictures posted, I will do laundry/dishes, I will___________, but for now I am enjoying the moment, the moment of realizing that right now I feel complete.
I love you Alan James! Good Night, Sleep Tight and Thank You for making Mommy and Daddy's dreams come true!
2 comments:
What a letter! I'm so glad you are getting settled into your new house.
i've thought to myself so many times these last couple weeks how amazing it must be for you and matt, after waiting and searching for so long, to finally be in your first house. especially this time of year when you have the wonder of creating all these holiday traditions for alan in a place that you love...that's yours. i'm so happy for you. what beautiful words! xoxo
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